"Special note: Aboriginal Doll Work-Story"
1990 JABRO Copyright
Following are some impressions and interpretations by the artist JABRO © about her own created lifelike "Aboriginal toddler-girl doll with soul", made out of wax and then cast by JABRO in "liquid wood", ©.
"As a rational thinking person, I prefer not to BELIEVE IN THINGS only, but try to KNOW all about them. Because of this I was occupied over years with religion, classic and modern psychoanalysis, the science about brain surgery, the science of return from death to life, telepathy and paranormality.It is common knowledge that most native people have a better understanding and feelings for the supernatural phenomena of our world within us and around. For instance, some of the Australian Aborigines are very good in telepathy, also in healing of some illnesses where the conservative, academic medicine has failed.
Indeed, their people believe that those of them, with the gift of understanding of supernatural phenomena, are possessing magical powers.
So, among others, I am very much interested in the explanations and facts of the science of magical phenomenology.
Coming from there, a number of interesting scientific books about science of neurology, psychology and psychoanalysis, have been written by the Austrian neurologist Sigmund Freud (1856-1939) the originator of the science of psychoanalysis.They were (by some means) my "Bible" during many years.
Interestingly enough for me, the Freudian themes are somehow connected with the multifaceted themes of magical phenomenology despite denied by him and most of the other scientists of his branch.
Thus, for my understanding there is a possibility (not to be ruled out totally) that the genuine and highly gifted "DNA-Artist", ©, is being used by the provably existing spiritual world to act as their tool (or medium) to be heard and/or seen (in one or the other way) through his/her referring kind of masterworks.
After decades of ignoring or denying those sorts of mystical and magical eventualities, at last, I must confess in my late sixties that most of my masterworks have developed during their entire working process into an astonishing spiritual direction, which, originally, was not planned by me, at all, but on that extraordinary level of humans’ unconscious mind!
In other words: Before I have started with my masterworks’ subjective-sublimated realization, they have been planned by me for many weeks and months (*) into their entire and smallest details, in any respect, but, at last, somehow they turned out differently in one or the other way.
Actually, some of Freud’s followers have specialised in the more mind- influencing and mind-forcing subjects of telepathy, hypnosis and telekineses, and are teaching those sorts of subjects at universities in some European Eastern-Block countries, (*) as well in the USA, where phenomenology is taught as a subject of science. (*)
(* The perception of phenomenology is described in many interesting books. One of them, with the title "PSI", is very recommendable. (*))
Coming from there, the academic science discovered too that humans are unable to use the given 100% capacity of their brain power, but only around 30%!
So it is absolutely wrong to say: What I can't see, hear, or taste, is just not existent.
But at present, we are still doomed to TRY to understand what is really going on, which not necessarily means, that we are always successful by those "exploring" activities!
Other worded: We are nothing, but only dust - and at this point of view, the religious believing, but in a relatively (un-) real sense of life and death, is STARTING!
This foreword was necessary, for better understanding the special relationship with my Aboriginal toddler-girl masterwork, because I don't see only a doll in it, but a spiritual totem of a human race, called Australian Aboriginal.
For me, as a professional academic but "DNA-Artist", ©, it is no problem, at all, to create faces in clay, respective gypsum, or any other materials.
(* 1957, still played with dolls)
Again, this masterwork was created by me at home with aid of sharpened matches only and an old rusty kitchen-knife, but without any previous training in that material and absolutely none experiences, at all, in the subject sculpture, respective mask and relief!
Fortunately, despite many moves in my life at home and abroad, my very first masterwork of a two-dimensional sculpture, the "Wagner Portrait", is still available (cast in gypsum, 1957,) and shown in my own created, very first informative and beautiful PR film of 30 minutes, titled: "JABRO About JABRO ", 1978-1982. (JABRO ©.)
As mentioned, it is also to see on the JABRO Website address
However, the very FIRST TIME in my life, (1990), even as a most experienced, proven highly gifted and professional artist, I genuinely was struggling (at the age of forty-seven (47) years!) to create a face, which I can accept from its outfit and from its spiritual expression.
Parallel to the demanding creation of this special artwork having been faced with even as a professional artist, who did this many times, I still had to care for my own beloved children and husband as an unpaid fulltime mum.
(* See @ http://www.JABROS-Masterworks.com, navigation bar, section "Family Album", thumbnails "Princess", "Beba" and "Bitzili".
To that time, (1990), those very frustrating, but essential (even unpaid) duties for the growing family have been managed by me already over a period of a quarter of a century without any support, since I was always in the malposition of women-disadvantaging laws and thus unable to create any better lifestyle far above the poverty line!!
Seen from this point of view: Even being an excellent and passionate cook, (*) the shabby marital "ticket-meal", propagated by the Western misogynistic men-societies as an "equivalent value" for the most important job in the world - as to give birth and rise the future of each country in form of the next generation of parents, employers/employees, and taxpayers - must be described as the most brutal scorn slashed into the face of each unpaid-working fulltime mum and each "half-paid working half-time mum"!
(* Since about four years, I photograph daily our meals for documentation and printing purposes. So, I am in the fortunate position to own around four thousand digital colour photos to choose from the best of the best of my self-cooked meals in view of a planned cook-book of mine, which, indeed, will become very special.)
No doubt, this ancient form of "modern" women’s exploitation (in autocratic western men-societies) is proving retroactive onto the next generation’s welfare - in any respect - and therewith is questioning the progressive future of each of the affected maltreated nations!
Parallel to this never ending domestic chore, I have worked daily as a mainly unsupported, but suppressed fulltime freelance artist manageable only in day- and night shifts!
Among other disadvantages connected within, such unproductive and unpaid, sick-making household duties have stolen from me too much of my very own and most valuable lifetime, never to be retrieved!
That means, unfortunately I have been always in lack of genuine equal opportunities, because of my gender!
Nonetheless, each working day, I repeatedly reserved three to four hours, to create in wax this very special portrait of an Aboriginal toddler girl.
However, during about ten weeks, I was absolutely not satisfied with all my respective artistic activities connected with this portrait thought to become a masterwork and to the same time it should be used as a very special and unique, artistic (collector-) doll "with soul", ©, in a limited edition only!
In the consequence, I discarded my daily work again and again, but certainly didn't want to give up finalising the same in a most excellent and unbeatable manner.
In regard to the mentioned, totally unfamiliar struggling of mine, there could have been one (or more?) reason(s) for.
The conservative and traditional Western world of art (I was raised in and have been furnished with a finished fulltime study of six years) has many and different impressions of the MUST-BE functional and purposive concept "Beauty" but all, more or less, are seen from mainly one point of view in a Christian religious-traditional manner, such as:
"MANKIND HAS HAD TO LEARN FROM SCRATCH FOR KNOWING ALL ABOUT THE RELIGIOUS-CULTURAL AND CONSTRUCTIVE-PROGRESSIVE, BUT ALWAYS FUNCTIONAL RULES OF SURVIVAL.
ACTUALLY, THOSE STRICT RULES HAVE BEEN COMING "INTO BEING" ALREADY DURING MANKIND’S EARLY DEVELOPMENT, (*), UP TO NOWADAYS WESTERN HIGH TECH WORLD OF NUCLEAR (WAR-) THREATS AND DEADLY ENVIRONMENTAL POLLUTION.
(* SEE EARLY CAVE-PAINTINGS! ALSO, THESE USEFUL, EVEN STRICT FAMILY- AND SOCIAL COMMUNITY RULES HAVE BEEN INSEPARATELY CONNECTED, PRESERVED AND FURTHER DEVELOPED IN GOOD WORKING, RELIGIOUS FAMILY-CIRCLES AS THE PROVEN, BUT PURPOSIVE FOUNDATION OF EACH SOCIETY’S POSITIVE AND PROGRESSIVE GROWTH INTO ITS RESPECTIVE POWERFUL AND WEALTHY, AT LEAST, JUST LIVEABLE FUTURE!)
By the way, it is not a CONTRADICTION, when I advert that the objective understanding of the multilayered concept "BEAUTY" can be learned only with aid of the respective and subjective-sublimated cognitions. However, those cognitions are naturally dependent on everyone’s personal and thus different development stages. In the end there is a complex of many different recognitional experiences, which, at last, are leading to the essential solidification of one, but multilayered subjective-sublimated understanding regarding the traditional concept "BEAUTY".
Thus, having been spoilt (from an early age on) all those years with permanent artistic success in every respect, (*) I was faced now later in my life with those additional, but for me new kind of experiences regarding the portrait-making of that special, but imaginary Aboriginal toddler-girl.
Nonetheless, even having had to learn toilsomely about new and multifaceted, but most interesting artistic and spiritual aspects and their still unknown rules to follow at the start and during my "creation-story", at last; I did it very well since homogenously developed step by step.
However, such things could happen only in a non-objectifying manner, but in a subjectively sublimated way to be able to learn to understand what BEAUTY really means as an, indeed, independent and multi-faceted subject in any respect.
(* See my masterworks, created without any experiences out of the nothingness at the very young age of fourteen and fifteen years @ http://www.JABROS-Masterworks.com, navigation bar, section "JABRO’S Sculptures, thumbnail first row from left to right, 1957 – 1958.)
Even so, I still had problems to give that special artwork of mine its essential soul.
So, in the consequence, once I have asked an Aboriginal mother, to be allowed to photograph her six pretty, black skinned and blonde-haired children, but she denied me the favour.
One (of more) probable explanations for this unwillingness facing a photo camera could be that Aborigines believe, the photographing of their small children will bring them bad luck.
By the way: The picture on the photo-collage with the Aboriginal toddler-boy and me was taken in 1990, but around ten weeks later after successfully having finished my Aboriginal toddler-portrait.
So, this very special portrait is a conglomerate of each of these older Aboriginal children, reflected on poor quality prints only.
Of course, after my first struggling to come to term with all those mentioned odds, I then was very successful in bringing the characteristic of each child into my artwork, also to transform the same to a younger toddler face, see photos on top and the text block’s right hand side.
Nonetheless, despite the visibly hard worked for and great success – somehow, deeply hidden inside of my mind, I still was unsatisfied, since having had the uncomfortable feeling that the spirit, or soul of my artwork was missing, by knowing very well having not yet developed the right emotional and spiritual relationship with it.
Oddly enough, one day, after having studied (again and again) for more than "one thousand and one time" the faces of the children on the few bad prints, at last, I had my SECOND experience with this special artwork of mine, as I suddenly recognized the full life in the eyes of the little Aboriginal girl, aged about eight years, intensively-observing her viewers in a mysteriously detaining way. (*)
Maybe I have had just a mental block and was blind because of this, but perhaps there was much more behind the scene and behind my intellectual, rational understanding. Who ever knows?
Although, from this very moment on I definitely knew, that the longed for spirit, at last, has entered my masterwork during the last steps of its final completion.
So, after having finally finished my Aboriginal "TOTEM TODDLER- GIRL DOLL WITH SOUL", for the THIRD TIME, I had a very unusual experience with this fascinating magnum opus, like following:
At the end of that day it was finished by me, I had been alone with it in the working room, the sunset was sending its last sun rays through the window (I had not yet switched on the electric light), the doll was lying in my right arm, heavy and tall like a real child of ca. three months and I looked at her, still with a fragment of a tiny, tiny bit of uncertainty, and - suddenly - her dark eyes were lighting up full with life.
At the same moment I felt, for a fraction of a second, an instant scare throughout my body.
Indeed, a very easy and comprehensive explanation, which hardly gives room for any other thoughts, such as irrational phenomena and other things like that.
Then I showed the toddler-girl doll to my family, which liked her very much, but with a deep sigh of relief, in the knowledge that mum and wife would from now on be relaxed again, after many stressful weeks for the whole family involved.
Finally, I have had with this extraordinary masterwork a FOURTH unusual experience.
Immediately I thought to myself: ... That is, exactly, what I don't want in portrait photography.
Sure, it is common knowledge that in some of the ancient and today’s high cultures the middle of the forehead is symbolizing the site of supernatural spirits. But on that "shooting day", this knowledge was still underlined with the there positioned highlight, explainable by the strong domed forehead naturally concentrating the light onto this higher located spot of the face... or was it really in that way only???
Nonetheless, at that very special moment, honestly, I haven't thought about those sorts of things, just intended to make ordinary photos of my doll for documentation and printing purposes only.
In the consequence, I just wanted dearly to finish this project now in favour of others, waiting to be started and finished too… But it turned out the other way - why?
So, I’m still wondering, what has enabled me to photograph her on that special day in a way that she expresses too the contraries YOUTH and AGE in one photo only, by symbolizing at the same time INNOCENCE and MATURITY intertwined with WISDOM and IMMATURITY.
(Musing about, happened this subconscious photographical act only as an additional documentation of my many invented JABRO "Contrast-Pairs"?
Now, uncertainty beside, it’s just a matter of fact that my "Totem Toddler-Girl Doll with Soul" has many faces under different light conditions.
|Commonly, each artistic printing- or filming project is coined by a large crew of co-workers, working in only one specified area. The names of them are listed in a long row in the appendix of each of those "co-operations". |
In my special case, the extraordinary fact is that I am provably able to do the crews’ respective jobs all alone and, honestly, I am very proud on that!!
(* During this time (1981-1989) the professionally produced twelve thousand (12 000) artistic colour transparencies have been a documentation of each of my antique items in (up to six) different totalled positions, as well in specific details and other diverse circumstances of decoration and illumination. (#*)
As a professional and artistic photographer, I haven’t been satisfied with the common photography of the Sixties and Seventies regarding the publishing of antique doll- and teddy photos in books and magazines at that time.
Therefore, already in 1977, I began to sense the photography of my own antique toy collection has to be created in a new way, by solely developing my own inventive JABRO style to this work with aid of indirect lighting.
(* As one of many of my samples may serves the beautiful photographic portrait of my own antique doll, where I have used in the inventive JABRO style up to seven indirect lightings for only one photo shot!
In addition, I worked with my other, but contrary inventive JABRO style of photography by using in the, totally darkened, photo-atelier as the only light-source the tiny lamp (ca. 0,5 watt) in the doll house to brighten up one of its four rooms with an unique warm light. For doing so I left the lens of my manually operated, famous camera totally open by a waiting-time of nearly ten minutes. Here too, the success of this interesting photographic experiment gave me right!
To that time in 1977, I created too my first artistic photo picture-fact-book for "Children AND Adults", ©, titled "LA BELLE’S GREAT WISH", 1977&1984, ©. (*)
This happened with aid of my own, two elder children and my antique doll collection, as well some of my inventive JABRO "GRAPHICPAINTINGS" (©) pictorially representing my antique dolls in a subjective-sublimated and symbolic way.
In lack of progressive publishers, my worldwide unique and beautiful photo fact-book for "Children and Adults" (©) was printed in 1984 by self-publishing, JABRO ©. (*)
(* To see @ http://www.JABROS-Masterworks.com, navigation bar, section "JABRO’S Art Photo Books", thumbnail second row, second book from left to right.)
Also, my antique teddies are not anymore only dead objects of stuffed, dirty and shabby furry fabric, furnished with stupid and soulless glass eyes, but beautiful personalities, reflecting the respective artist's expression of sublimated "quasi-human" moods, ranging from self-confidence to introversion, from happiness to sadness, and so forth.
They are to discover in my four self-created bestseller calendars (published by a PR-company and also a publisher of calendars*), whereby I proudly did all alone as the entire essential drafts and the time-consuming scene-arrangements, as well the artistic photographs, graphic design-layouts and the whole textual work connected within.
Since all of my bestseller calendars from that time were worldwide unique and extraordinary, it just didn’t surprise that each of them was totally sold out in a few weeks time only! (JABRO, 1990, ©)
Additional note from August 2012:
It was registered as a small (test-) edition in self-publishing, printed in 2008 for the years 2009 & 2010. (*)
(* To see @ http://www.JABROS-Masterworks.com, navigation bar, section "JABRO’S Artistic Photo Calendars", main page top, titled, "CELEBRATE LIFE – CELEBRATE AGE", 2009 & 2010, as well under its own website address at WWW.BEN-J-A.COM)
In other words: This beautiful, worldwide unique "BENJA" WELFARE double-calendar for seniors made already history in newest digital high-technology and inventive artistic photo- and graphic-design!
Since this special WELFARE double calendar for 2009 & 2010 as a test-edition already has received exited positive reactions, one can be sure it will be a bestseller too likewise the other four JABRO bestseller calendars. (©)
(NOTE: In regard of the next edition; the double-calendar’s needed change of the following years (2013 & 2014, or 2014 & 2015) can be done by us, if required.
Again, the mentioned JABRO bestseller calendars are to see @ http:// www.JABROS-Masterworks.com; navigation bar’s section "JABRO'S Artistic Photo Calendars", ©.
Coming from there….It happened some years ago.
Within this upcoming twilight situation, the view bandied from one second to the other into a surreal, bright light, flashed on with thousands of electric highlights that the trees and their leaves looked stiff and somehow frozen in their movements, because of the change in colours from normal to glare.
Underlining the suddenly impression of this odd "Still Life" scenery, the wind now had died down and the song of the birds had vanished.
Mysteriously enough, but somehow we all felt to be in a big, surreal theatre with unnatural, artificial stage scenes.
Sure, the northern hemispheres have different light conditions than the southern ones. But was this really the only kind of explanation for that, somehow, odd and fascinating experience?
At Last: Actually, I know that I don't know.
However, one thing I do know indeed that is, this JABRO masterwork of a TOTEM TODDLER-GIRL DOLL WITH SOUL is spiritually alive.
Of course, it will be always a good omen for its owner - contrary to the large and infamous pink diamond, owned by the wealthy & famous people in our western men-societies, which, in fact, brought solely bad luck to each new owner.
After all, now, you can be exclusively happy with your new and wonderful "JABRO Kid"!
Just have always a great day and a good night sleep.
JABRO, 1990, © (& added note of 2012)
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